the unperfected perfectionist

WOW!  I haven't written on my blog in EIGHT months!  On one hand, I can't believe it. On the other, I know exactly why I haven't posted on the random happenings in my life. I have been happier than ever in this new season of my life.  My relationships with family and friends are great.  I'm still so very in love with Chris and am enjoying the life we share together.   From a birds eye view, everything seems to be going well in my life. So, what, do you ask, is the hang up?  This, my friends, was a mystery to me as well. I have been feeling fatigue like I have never experienced in my life. I thought that perhaps my iron was low, as it had been in the past.  I also have had frequent headaches that at times would occur daily.  My stomach has been a mess for as long as I can remember but, has gotten worse over the last year.  My mind hasn't been clear as it always was, in fact, its been very foggy. My bones have ached and ...

I'm back!!  I know some of you may have wondered what happened to me.  Did I fall off the earth?  Did I run out of things to blog about? Did I quit blogging altogether?  Nope.  None of the above.  Quite honestly, I've just been traveling  through life day by day just like each one of you are doing.  I will admit that there were many days that I told myself that I needed to sit down to blog but, obviously other things either took priority or I quite possibly was distracted by things in my life.  Today, was one of the few times that I was actually happy to see it rain!  Not only did it give my lawn a much needed drink but, it also excused me from picking those rotten weeds that seem to sprout as soon as I get them picked!  I thought it was a perfect day to sit down with my computer just like I used to do all the time, to get back to blogging and my love of writing.  A perfect day to feed my soul.  Those weeds will have t...

Do you ever have those weeks that you can't wait to be over because they have been so incredibly awful?  I know that everyone must have had this experience one time or another.  And if, indeed, you honestly never have had weeks like this, please contact me ASAP with your secret!  Ha ha!  I am kidding.  These times in my life are what build my character, right?  Absolutely!   Well, it is quite obvious that I had one of those weeks this last week.  I am so very thankful that today is the last day of this no good, very bad and horrible week.  I am even more thankful that tomorrow brings me the opportunity to begin with a fresh slate and high hopes for a wonderful week that will leave me forgetting about each and every struggle I had the week prior.  Of course I would never, ever want to dump all the details of my week on any of you but, I will say that if I was a negative person that had a tough time finding positives wit...

The chill is in the air already and part of me is very excited about pulling on a cozy sweatshirt and my favorite jeans with my socks and sneakers. It was so crazy hot for most of the summer, that I hardly had the chance to wear anything much more than tank tops, shorts and flip flops. The other part of me is crying for summer warmth to return.  As long as the sun keeps shining bright through my windows, I can most certainly deal with the cool weather.   In my house, we now have the first week of school under our belt.  Emma, once again,  loves her teacher and came home excited about the new school year.  Seeing her happy and excited, puts my mind at ease.  As it is every year, the transition back to school is most definitely, without a doubt, much harder for me than it is for Emma.  Yes, she is in the fourth grade now, and yes, I still miss her company when she goes to school everyday.  I loved the days of preschool, when she would only ...

It's Thankful Thursday !   I have been so out of my blogging routine, and posting so randomly, that I feel awful about missing Thankful Thursday's.   Lately, I have been deep in my thinking, as I shared with you in my last post, and I have been reminding myself quite frequently, how very much I have to be thankful for.  I hear about others misfortune or struggles or see things when I am going about my daily life that remind me how blessed I am with every passing day.  I had a huge reality check about how very short life can be this week.  I learned that a good friend of mine from my boarding school in North Carolina, passed away from complications of MS.  I had not seen her in many years but, had kept in touch through Facebook.  I knew she was not doing well and just a few days before I learned she had passed on to a better life, I was thinking that I should try to get down to see her.  Life is too short.  We are most definitely ...

Where has the summer gone?   It has been a fabulous summer full of laughter with family and friends. It was both busy and relaxing all at once. Does that even make sense?? For the first half, I felt like I had my face buried in my books while trying to absorb as much new information about personal training and attempting to ready myself for a new chapter in my life. On the flip side, I enjoyed many afternoons with Emma sitting by the pool or floating on a raft feeling absolutely content with my present life.    This summer has been full of lots and lots and lots of thinking for me.  Some days, I am literally exhausted because my mind just spins and spins.  It is so crazy that I have times in which I would do anything to have a switch and be able to turn my mind off.  I have had this conversation with others and I know I am not alone in wishing for that very switch.  I have had lots of changes happening and decisions to make.  I w...

Do you ever have those days in which you just feel you need a bit more inspiration than on other days?  I had one of those days today!  I prefer to be the one to offer up some inspiration to others but, there are many occasions that I must go searching for some of my own.   Its really ironic because as I was thinking I needed a dose of inspiration, Emma had turned on the T.V. and would you believe inspiration was staring me dead in the eye.  The Ironman World Championship was showing.  I don't watch much T.V. but, this really captured me today.  I watched the well trained endurance athletes compete in this event and amongst them were also people that had never competed before.  They told stories of several competitors.  A woman that used to be very overweight, a woman that was diagnosed with cancer and endured treatments at the same time she was training.  There was a man with no legs and a man in his eighties.  While watching th...